Saw one of my many doctors today. This was a follow up visit from my last surgery that got rescheduled twice so it's been two months now since the exploratory surgery. And the conclusion - lots of problems visible, but I need more live bacteria in my GI track! LOL, so the process begins to eat lots of live bacteria. Sounds weird to me, but hopefully it will help!
On other notes of life....
My heart has been heavy lately. Satan is active and working hard. I feel the burden of the pain and suffering in this world. But I'm also feeling an overwhelming amount of faith in God. I can't save people. I can't change situations. But I serve a God who can. My God is mighty to save! I will praise Him and trust Him.
I realized after talking with a friend yesterday what a blessing being single with no prospects can be. It's hard to watch all my friends get married/engaged/or at least starting a relationship and still be as single as ever! Haha, and as the singles I know are dwindling down and there are no potentials I know (or at least that I see as potentials right now), I'm left with only God to be the love of my life! Haha, and how sweet is that! I need God to be the love of my life, and the only one before I can be in a relationship. I desire a husband one day, but praise God for my sweet and precious time with only Him right now!
I still feel broken for Africa. I want to be there. I want to love unloved children, I want to feed hungry children, hug a crying child, hold a starving baby, I want to share Christ with these African beauties that He created to wonderfully. I don't have money though or a realistic way to get there soon, so for now I'm stuck here with a broken heart but an amazing God who loves these children I so desire to love even more than me! He is good :)
I graduate May 9th. It can't come soon enough. The past 4 years have been an unbelievable struggle. The fact that the end is so close and I've actually made it this far is amazing. Yet scary. The job search has begun. Still praying for clarity and God's will and direction for my life! I had an interview Wednesday. There are some potential positions that might be open that I would love, but I want it only if it's God's will for me to do that job and still live here.
I'm also trying to figure church stuff out. I love my church. I love so many great things about it. I love to see the Christian families interact. A love and interaction I didn't know existed until I started going there. Something I want for my future family. I love to learn from them. I love how it is Spirit led. That we pray and believe in our God and worship Him in various ways! But I don't feel connected. I feel very alone there. God's definitely taken me through some dark valleys of loneliness in my life this year. And I'm learning from it. So maybe I'm still supposed to be there at this church even if it's lonely. I don't know and am seeking wisdom on that. He's using the loneliness, but I also long to be part of a body and have so many hopes and dreams of how God can use a body that is truly seeking Him!
My dad is having surgery on Wednesday. There are still a lot of unknowns. May God be the great physican, guide the three doctors' hands that are involved, and comfort those of us longing for answers! He is good and it's in His hands! I will put my trust and faith in Him! My Healer and Protector!
"When God's creation is broken, He's more than able to fix it." ~ Faith Like Potatoes
You should all read Faith Like Potatoes and then watch the movie! Good stuff! God is so amazing! May our faith be real and solid in Him!
The chronic fatigue syndrome has been unreal this week! I felt like I barely made it through today and can't keep going - but praise our awesome God for a 4 day weekend! That I can rest and sleep in. May I rest in His peace!
On that note, I'm off to bed! Praying everyone has a blessed Easter looking past the Easter baskets and bunnies and eggs to the real risen - Christ has risen!!!! That's a big deal y'all! He loves us that much! Praise God!
"I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety" ~ Psalm 4:8
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