Reveal To These Eyes The True Heart Of My Father

Mommy, I hear the baby crying
Help me, are the words she's implying
Where've I been while my world has been dying
Lord, teach me how to pray
Not my will or my plans or the way I that want it
I'm so tired of my hands in the way
So reveal to these eyes the true heart of my Father, today
Lord teach me how to pray
Daddy, I can hear Jesus crying
Help me, are the words He's implying
Am I sleeping while my Savior is dying
Lord, teach me how to pray
Not my will or my plans or the way I want it
I'm so tired of my hands in the way
So reveal to these eyes the true heart of my Father, today oh God
Lord teach me how to pray
Teach us how to pray oh God
Thy kingdom come
Thy will be done oh Father
Here on earth, just as it is in Heaven
Thy kingdom come
Thy will be done oh Father
Here on earth, just as it is in Heaven
A passion for your heart oh God
A passion for your heart oh God
Raise up a generation with a passion for your heart oh God
Your heart breaks oh God
And my heart break oh God
Oh God
Raise up a prophetic generation
Raise up a prophetic generation
Not about the future of fortune and fame of man
But about the feelings of Your heart
Oh God
Teach us how to pray
Our King has come
For Your kingdom to come
Our King again
For Your will to be done
For every nation, tribe, and every tongue
Lord, teach me how to pray
Not my will or my plans or the way that I want it
I'm so tired of my hands in the way
So reveal to these eyes the true heart of my Father, today
Lord, teach me how to pray
Teach me how to pray
Not my will oh God
Not the way that I want it
Not my will oh God
Not the way that I want it
I'm so tired of these hands in the way
So, teach me how to pray oh God
Open our ears, open our ears that we may hear
Open our eyes that we may see
Open our ears that we may hear
Open our eyes, open up our ears
Open up our ears that we may hear
Open up our eyes that we may see
~Jason Upton's Teach Me How to Pray

I heard this song play recently and it really spoke to me. I had been really struggling with figuring out what I wanted in life. Everyone asks where I plan to try to get a teaching job for next year since I graduate in May. I was so conflicted and getting really frustrated because I honestly could not figure out where I want to be. I was struggling between wanting to stay here where my church and family are and wanting to move away and start a life somewhere new where nobody knows me. The frustration of not being able to figure it out was driving my crazy! But then God kind of smacked me in the face and I felt like He just simply asked me, "What about where I want you?" Oh yeah, I had completely forgotten to consider that! And what a dork I felt like when I realized that! But what a huge relief too! That actually takes a lot of pressure off of me to figure the decision out if I just seek the Lord's heart on it and am obedient to where He is telling me to be. The song said it perfectly,
"Not my will or my plans or the way I that want it
I'm so tired of my hands in the way
So reveal to these eyes the true heart of my Father, today
Lord teach me how to pray"
I'm so tired of focusing on what I want or what my plans are because they ultimately just end up getting in the way of His plan which is so much better than anything I could come up with! So for now I'm just praying that I would see the true heart of my Father and through prayer and fasting that He would reveal His plan and desire. Maybe not all of it at once, but that I would see where He is trying to lead me and be obedient to that. It's kind of scary, but it's trust, and faith. And my God is a very faithful God :)
~Jenna

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." ~ Jeremiah 29:11