Strength and Hope Fading as Pain Worsens....

This is really more of a prayer request than just an update. Please pray for me - my physical pain has gotten drastically worse which is causing huge amounts of frustration, discouragement, and a loss of hope. The pain is taking over my life which has been one of my biggest fears. I spent the afternoon in my favorite place, doing what I absolutely love, what makes me the happiest - I spent it with "my" kids. And while those beautiful faces couldn't have brought me more joy, the large amount of pain that I woke up with this morning only got much worse throughout the day and I couldn't hit the bed and heating pad fast enough when I got home. This is the biggest fear and pretty much my worst nightmare, that the pain would get to the point that I won't be able to take care of my kids that I love only second to Jesus. The thought of not being able to take care of them breaks my heart. The realization that I can barely handle getting out of bed because the pain that is so widespread throughout so many different areas of my body is so intense is incredibly depressing. So, this really wasn't intended to just be an update so you know the scoop or to be a prayer request for healing or against the pain. It's a desperate plea for prayers for hope, and faith, and strength to fight the emotional and spiritual battle that this all brings. Medical answers seem to be few and far between, and not likely for a solid diagnosis. It's all still a pretty big mystery right now and no answers requires a lot of faith and hope and trust that I don't feel like I have. Please help me see and stay focused on Christ through this....
~Jenna